i have had two recent experiences while getting ready to go somewhere that have left me feeling crazy, insecure, and less-than comfortable (one of these literally happened moments ago/is still happening). i put on an outfit and decide that it is too tight/loose/short/long/clingy/whatever. i just put on a t-shirt that i've had for literally 7 years and have worn maybe twice. it is an awesome t-shirt. why don't i wear it? it's clingy and the material is thin. i just looked in the mirror and thought to myself (out loud, because that's how i roll) "ugh, this makes me look fat and you can totally see my rolls. oh wait. i AM fat. i DO have rolls." it's about 40 degrees celsius outside and i was going to wear a 3/4 length button up shirt over this clingy t-shirt because, heaven forbid, people would see my rolls. luckily, i caught myself and have decided that i am going to wear this shirt to dinner because i like it, it is actually very comfortable, and i need to get over myself.
my mantra this evening is:
SO WHAT IF I LOOK FAT?
I AM FAT!
